i've been getting a lotta questions/comments about my blob lately...i kind of half explained it in my earlier blobs why i was turning into this like a public diary, but, here's a shorter version:

last year in CC (contemporary civilizations, a philosophy class), the ONLY author who really changed me, or really interested me was Michel Foucault in his two books we read "Discipline and Punish" and "The Birth of the Prison"

here's part of the conversation i had explaining it to an unnamed friend (just protecting his sn)


The Firephile (11:46:57 PM): he's actually the only author in that entire course that really changed anything i thought
The Firephile (11:47:01 PM): (granted i barely read anything)
The Firephile (11:47:22 PM): but he wrote about something called the 'penopticon', which originated as a prison scheme
The Firephile (11:47:40 PM): a dougnut shape with a tower in the middle, so all the cells can be seen from the middle, the man
The Firephile (11:48:18 PM): and it was so much lack of privacy that they proposed to invite the public to see the prisoners and everything, but the prisoners couldn't see inside the tower
The Firephile (11:48:23 PM): or even if anyone was in the tower
The Firephile (11:48:33 PM): BUT, they were forced to act as if there WERE someone watching them, always
The Firephile (11:48:50 PM): foucault basically applied it to society, and thought that if you take EVERYONE's privacy, everyone's still equal
The Firephile (11:49:02 PM): but they're forced to hold THEMSELVES responsible for all their actions

i'm sure i could make much more sense if i actually read it better...but yeah i'm useless. the basic gist of it is that if you think everyone's watching, you are personally gonna imprison yourself and do what YOU think SOCIETY will accept so that you can be a part of that society. therefore you are directly responsible for your actions and, moreso, the repercussions.

what really appealed to me about foucault was that he explained in much more detail and with much better justification what i try and do with my life. i'm always asking myself things like "what would my mom say if....what would my sister....grandma?" i don't like hiding things. i HATE when i have things in my head that my ego and pride can't let out, so i try not to ever do anything i can't tell the world....this is my penopticon, my prison, and my instrument of responsibility for my actions.

of course i'm still curious who's in the tower......please, comment if you have something to say :) i KNOW you're out there (i have traffic counters, heh heh, they're fun)

oh and another thing. i bitch about women far too much, i'm gonna try and ease up on that.

-but you're jess