so, how many of you followed my shameless self plug on the newsgroup to find me here in my own crapulence?

haha, suckers.

it's interesting to me how social humans have to be to stay sane. when i was younger (elementary school) i really didn't talk to many people. i didn't really make any real friends until the last couple years, and then we all went our seperate ways (i.e. i went to a private school) for high school. for 'recess' i'd either count ants, sleep in the classroom, or figure out whatever lesson the teacher had listed after recess on the chalk board.

i was such a geek...hah.

i was still a geek in high school, but a bit more talkative. again, i made more friends late in my high school career and learned a lot about myself. turns out i used to kinda scare people 'cause i always looked like i never wanted to talk to anyone. i have a rather solemn 'rest face' i think some have told me, or flat out angry. in actuality there were three things that contributed to it: 1) i didn't really want to talk to most people. 2) i was to shy to talk to the rest. and 3) i was usually happy just watching the world and listening to myself think. my friends at home think i've changed a lot. a lotta people here think i'm a very social, fun lovin' guy....and there's a few people who know me both ways. i act differently depending where i am (hawaii/nyc) and few people see the difference, but it's there. i suppose everyone does this and i wonder if i'm really that weird, but i just feel like it's much more pronounced in me. i mean i come from a little valley in the middle of nowhere and now i've found myself in this urban paradise....bit of a culture shock.

i don't even know how i started this, but i don't wanna go back and read it. i'm gonna watch more anime. do you like anime? we should watch anime together.


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