good day

besides how shitty i feel. i won't bother recapping my sleep schedule, you know how it goes. but yeah, i got my pset done like...twenty minutes early for electronics (see last post)...almost got 'em all too. wrote some bullshit for one 'cause i didn't really know wtf was going on, but that's usually what happens on my psets. stayed awake through most of class too! score. had some acis work to do in the evening....i can't finish these two tickets that i have 'cause they're intermittent connections...such a pain in the ass...and both these girls rather enjoy talking to me.

*mixed feelings*

and i did 4/6 of the problems on my signals pset! yay. i don't think i'm going to practice unfortunately as my back is a bit weak and i really could use the time to study. data structures...ugh. i really hate coding. it does help, however, that i've missed the last FIVE classes of both signals and data structures. funny how that happens....

i usually don't do shit on tuesday nights, so i'm way ahead right now. i'd like to say there's an end in sight but i'm gonna be behind well through this weekend. hah!

this post has been pretty fuckin' boring so far, but i'll make it at least a bit interesting. as i've mentioned a few times before, there's been some things i've been keepin' off the blob. one of them, yet again, was candace....*pitiful applause*. she 'randomly' (in her words) stopped by amcaff when we were celebrating sai's birthday but i'm pretty sure she knew we were there (she's a friend of sai's) and we ended up going to the heights and drank long after everyone else had moved on to drunken food...and she ended up back here...and she stayed here and slept with me. nothing happened...we didn't even kiss. but we were closer than most people get when one of them's got a boyfriend of a year and the other hates her. a friend (do you know who you are?) told me about it that, "that is a bridge [i] have to burn." methinks so, yes. i found out the next day that matt was in town for the weekend. i saw them walking at one point during the day but they didn't see me, and i know he at least went drinking with some of the team at some point, but i was neither invited nor aware of it 'till well after. not that i would've gone anyway but it amused me that nobody bothered to tell me *shrugs*.

i've gotten lots of attention from the female kind in the past...oh...maybe three weeks. gave my attention back on one occasion but it seems it was the wrong kind of attention at the wrong time. vague enough? still technically an 'if' but i'm beginning to make assumptions *shrugs*. it's inevitable. holding true to my history, however, i'm opting to sit back and let other people make decisions first. life runs pretty smoothly when you're as laid back as i am....

i have been thinking a lot about 'change' lately, however. this is my last year here and i feel things inside me trying to bust out and explore more of life. it's getting more and more likely that this will be my last year in the city. i do love the city, but i think my life is moving on. three years and i still feel like a tourist enjoying a jungle. i'm an adventurous guy, so i'm comfortable being an outsider anywhere i am usually. i feel 'that time' comin' up on me, though. lots of conflicting thoughts. i'll try and sort them out.

ants