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so i WAS gonna go to sleep relatively early after calling my parents. my mom always thinks it's really weird taht i'm talking to her when it's three am out here...either way. i started channel surfing.

before i go on...i really do love channel surfing. i mean...even if i never find anything...i can do it for quite a while. kind of half watching five different pieces of shit (two of them being an infomercial on 'girls gone wild' running on two different channels...slightly skewed from eachother) and hoping for something better. mtv and vh1 are always good for that late at nightw hen they ACTUALLY play music...although vh1 definitely has better taste these days (really starting to like outkast).

what i finally happened upon was a movie on HBO called Love & Sex with famke janssen and john favreau. it's one'a those messed up love stories...but what really caught me was that she's just...amazingly hot. either way, got into and there were just SO many lines that i wanted to remember. like...painful but true type of things. it was one'a those where they're together forever but then break up and date other people only to realize they just love eachother more. yeah...not gonna talk about her :) *grinds teeth*

great line: "sex is the best way to forget"

no wonder it took me about three years to get over a girl i dated for two months and never even made out with (yeah...tell me about it). and then there's the current bridge burning contest i'm having with myself.

'unfaithful' is on tomorrow at 8pm. that's the one with diane lane and that creepy drug dealer from 'SWAT' and richard gere. we were having a conversation about how the fuck diane lane is so hot when she's probably closer to twice our age (more? no idea). HBO's been heavily advertising that and 'white oleander', neither of which have i seen, and both somehow drawing me to them with songs i just can't get outa' my head. it amazes me sometimes what a simple song can do to me. or change the way i think of something. for a while when i was younger all i ever bought was soundtracks. i was too scatterbrained to pick out bands i liked...or even genres sometimes. kinda of odd but it really took me a long time to develop my musical tastes. i liked punk and ska early on for their emotional value (...fun!) but liking music just for the music came later. yeah i'd pick out songs here and there but it was rare that i found one that inspired me to find more of that type and learn more about it. i've kind of gotten stuck in a rut since my computer died on me, thoguh. i'd just downloaded a shitload of stuff that i'd been listening to at home over the summer and was lovin' it. now i'm stuck listening to the same ten songs on k-rock and the cd's i've owned since i was sixteen. i did get two new ones, jack johnson and alien ant farm...which haven't left my cd player. but the third spot on the tray's been visited by only a few other discs. in the past maybe two weeks: mulligan/baker, NOFX, mixed CD's, and evanescence. i need some new music.

i gotta fix my computer. or just start borrowing cd's? christian, drew and i have had a few nights where we'd just chill out and listen to music all night drinkin' beer and eating leftovers or something. that was a lotta fun. christian has my tastes plus a whole slew of other stuff, and drew has completely different tastes but always has a lot of interesting grooves. works out nicely for someone like me trying to expand his musical horizons. i was trying to get into jazz last semester when i was in the class but once i heard mulligan and baker i kind of stopped looking :) i borrowed a double cd from austin and it's awesome. i'm gonna go buy some when i get the chance. i've always loved counterpoint and those two are fuckin' SEAMLESS. so hot it sends chills down my back sometimes.

but in the end, it's six am. wtf am i doing.

heading down to midtown tomorrow to meet up with my sis. she has to go into work on a saturday morning, poor girl, but we're plannin' on gettin' some belgian fries, finding some music or something for the night, and eating good. should be a good time. she lives so close but i haven't seen her in weeks. she started a new job and moved into their new place, and i...just haven't left campus except to go to a tourney....or like last weekend i just sat around like a bump on a log. or today when i just sat around like a bump on a log. meh. it's too nice not to have to set the alarm clock when i go to bed.


hot pocket.