temptations - my girl
descending into the shadows

feel like dropping off radar for some reason. *shrugs*

either way, i was staring at the chalkboard today in class loking at a bunch of math i really didn't wanna write down...and found myself thinking about what the hell i'll be doing in about four months now...or three....i don't wanna count. one thing i decided is that i probably won't be doing disgusting integrations that eleftheriades was doing on the board.

my little predicament involves coming to columbia university....and now that i'm a senior i'm finding i could be happy for the rest of my life doing something i could've learned in a trade school doing night classes or something. funny how that happens. is the degree gonna help me approach it differently? or am i just going to go into these jobs completely overprepared but unmotivated to work harder? or will i be able to bring a different perspective to that kind of job?

the jobs i'm thinking of involve music production/recording/staging...shit like that. i could be a very happy man just playing with recording equipment all the time...or putting together shows. my internship at scharff/weisberg was putting together rental packages of staging equipment...that was fuckin' awesome. i had a great time there and they were pretty flexible about me playing with stuff once in a while (i just took a long time testing them). the thing is all that shit can be done with a manual and a years' experience....i don't know if going into something like that would just be a springboard or a dead end.

so of course i stare at the blackboard and decide i don't wanna learn the math right now. i'll learn it from the manual.

i'm good with manuals.

can you give me a manual?


OBE