but you're jess

so at the midnight breakfast thing (in the gym at barnard, lotsa food...LOTSA girls in pajamas and whatnot) it was brought to my attention that one of kelsey's friends thought i was, according to eric's rendition of the conversation, "the epidemy of hot." this girl's name is ahnjulee...or something sounding like that. of course the conversation wanders over (thanks to eric) to how girls will say that up until they talk to me :) wonderful. i rule!

either way, a little later (ten, fifteen minutes) i was checking out this girl a table over from ours...and she looks back and does kinda the 'oh he saw me look' and looks again...oops. and within minutes makiko gets all excited and goes, "remember ahnjulee? she's sitting right there" and points me towards that girl....

see, most people, if they find somebody they're checking out look back and return the same looks, they get excited. me? i get scared. i really don't know how to just 'meet' people, i dunno why. i kind of wonder how i have the friends i do 'cause most of the time i don't really remember the first time i met them (rarely). i just kinda grow into them with people i hang around a lot, for example, ultimate. i don't remember the first time i met all my ultimate friends 'cause when i first met them, i barely talked to them! it took a while *shrugs*. so, translate that to meeting women with whom something might happen...and i'm a bumbling fool that has no idea what to say. usually i just end up talking about what a geek i am and how i love to play with electrons....yeah, that's hot. but hey, it's easy to talk about....

i really don't understand what lindsay, candace, or ana found attractive about me....maybe i should ask them some day...pull a cusack....

or i'll just get drunk more often and put myself in awkward situations to force me to meet people (read: HOT WOMEN).

hah......*shakes head* i'm going to sleep

no love