pause

so after that madness with my project and all the other work i was rushing to get in, it's like my life's been put on pause. really weird feeling....tuesday already seems so long ago, and the frustratoin and anxiety surging through my veins...so distant. it's reallyw eird. i'm totally not worried about finals yet...even though i really should be. i'd LIKE to be partying, but everyone's either studying or just not interested....*shrugs* so i've just been kinda mopin' around. saw x-men 2 today, AMAZING. i kept getting chills throughout the movie 'cause it's pretty much like my childhood coming to life. i was so psyched. a must see. multiple times.

with the end of the year coming, once again i have to contemplate what's going to happen to all the people i know....especially (as usual) those graduating this year. *sob* i'll miss you! of course i'm only talking to kix 'cause she's the only one leaving who i know reads this ;) poor girl, has to listen to all my crap....well...doesn't have to. i'm rather confused as to why she reads it so much. thanks nonetheless :) *blows kiss out to cyberland*

hell even being away for three months....might have adverse effects on things. i mean, minus a month (christmas) i've seen some of these new yorkers constantly for a year and a half...and now i'm not going to see them for three whole months. and then at home, old friends? new friends? old flames? i'm not sure what lindsay's doing this summer...don't even know what candace is doing this summer. not that either of them give me a particularly warm feeling when i do see them. cat's still fun...of course she seems overly interested in getting me laid. heh, gotta love 'er i guess. i've survived this long....i always had some weird idea that 21 was a good number to wait for...i get that from my mom i guess. but even then, i feel like i'll still be waiting....*Srhugs* i'm in no rush.


for now though, i'm gonna go get more free food at midnight breakfast at barnard. such a good deal :)

be back with more year-end ponderings i suppose

chilly drink