geek folly

so i just took a HUGE step in my project. i basically had all the math correct, all my methods correct, and i basically fucking rock, BUT, i did the equivalent of taking a single wrong pin out of something like a chip. the chip only has nine pins, three of which i had to choose from, and i completely didn't think about it and therefore made about 12 more hours of work/contemplation/frustration for myself. i'm an animal, i love it. i could've been DONE with this fuckin' project with as much time as i've been spending on it but i guess learning the hard way will make it stick. it's actually a mistake i've made before on a homework....but yeah....*slaps head*

and through this whole disgusting process of folly, i did learn a lot about matlab, and even re-learned mathematica (i have much more respect for it now than when i did frosh yeaer when i had that recitation on friday MORNING....i guess it's hard to appreciate much about it when i showed up drunk/hungover most of the time : ) so i guess it's not all a waste. if i'd really taken the time to learn these programs a while ago, they could probably do my homework for me : ) mathematica is a nicely organized program that can even do symbolic math....if any of you know how easy it is to use TI-89's and 90's (w/ symbolic math), let's just say mathematica puts it to shame. i imagine it might be a useful tool for future endeavors.

alright, enough of this dorkspeak. jesus christ i'm a geek. my friend scott (also my bassist) and i sit around doing psets and inevitably get into long conversations about the things we're studying and discovering. then of course we realize that there're other people in the lounge and quickly laugh at our dorkisness....it's spectacular. i really can't wait to start applying this shit and solving real life problems. this project is the first time we've ever done that's practical in a working situation and i'm seeing what kind of work and type of thinking is involved, and i like it. hell, half the time i've been working on this project i've been fucking with things and seeing what they do to the overall output of things and it's really interesting. one reason i haven't 'really' needed much sleep recently is because when i sit in front of the computer doing this kind of thing.....i don't get tired. in fact, i get AMPED.


geekdom....