sing it

you give me fever.....

so around now my cold medicine is wearing off and i can feel that burning in my eyes that's probably my fever returning. not good, not good.

i could:
1) suck it up and finish this box of cold medicine tomorrow and rely on pseudoephedrines for my energy
2) suck it up and buy a lotta redbull
3) not suck it up, sleep a WHOLE LOT, and basically do what i did today (although probably minus the two girls who asked me to join them in a private room)
4) not suck it up, sleep kind of a lot and do homework all day
5) just suck....a lot.

of course there's the question of the party afterwards as well....(at eric's).....whatever i do during the day tomorrow, i still shouldn't be drinking....which is of course the best time to drink.

however, eric did mention that he was inviting candace and matt as well and asked if it would be okay with me. i told him it's his party and not to worry about me. i think that's what i said...i dunno i dodged it somehow but it'll definitely go into my decision :) sorry eric. i could always do it under the guise of being sick in which case only....eric....and....all of you would know....shit. haha. i'm such a child sometimes. for some reason i've been getting a lotta questions about candace lately...mostly by new readers. here's a quick recap:

we graduated from the same school (she's two years older)
i've known her since 9th grade
i've probably liked her since 9th grade but she always had a boyfriend (singular)
i didn't know columbia existed 'till she came here
when i came here, she left on a medical leave for a bit of a breakdown
she stayed out for three semesters
we started dating my frosh summer
broke up
got back together
i came back to college
broke up (distance sucked)
got back together over christmas break (without a word about it to begin with)
she finally came back to school
broke up after spring break soph year (hey that's when i broke my back)
kept sleeping with her (although still managed to keep my virginity...)
stayed in NYC that summer and when she came back, we stopped talking for the most part
november 1st of junior year (last year) she hooks up with matt, who at the time i considered to be one of my best friends....that died fast.

and the rest is more awkward pain.

that wasn't much of a 'quick recap' but we've got a long history. i do, however, plan to end the list there. and more, unless more happens, i'm going to try to stop talking about her because i'm getting tired of rethinking what happened between us. i hate trying to dig deeper into it 'cause in the end i keep finding things i'd found within about a few months of dating her. feel free to ask if you're curious, i don't mind that, but i don't wanna blog it.