once again, sucking, with nothing to do. i'm actually gonna start playing guitar in a few minutes but i thought you might like to know that (you being me). i just spent a few hours with karen, rachel and dave at koronets and the heights...karen was drunk off her ass from an admission's office party apparently and was quite amusing. rachel and duke were only going to stay at the heights 'till midnight, but we manged to keep them there 'till about 12:40. very proud of ourselves :)

karen wouldn't really stop talking, but in between her circular babbles we were having a discussion about the men's and women's team this year and past years and future years. it's a rather interesting group dynamic. i kind of feel like a tourist in it all right now because i've been detatched from them for so long (back injury). i mean, i didn't play a tournament for an entire year, i didn't practice during that time 'cause i'd get hurt, and i don't practice now because none of the practice times work with my schedule *shrugs* sucks to be me. either way, on the field i feel outa' place saying things, and the group dynamic has changed a lot in ways i don't yet understand. i mean, i hang out with all these people, but before i hung out with them and played ultimate with them also. something got lost along the way...unfortunately it might be all of our immaturity...wait...is that supposed to be a good thing? i dunno, i don't wanna fuckin' grow up. i wanna party party. rachel asked me something along the lines of who i like to hang out with, and i said "anybody," and i really do. i mean there are definately a few people i just can't really hang out with alone, but as long as there are other people around to 'buffer', i really do just love to see other people. gets me outa my own mind i guess...lots goin' on there lately. fuck. i run out of work and have all the time in the world and i can't do anything but wallow in my past again...how does that work!?

i'm gonna try and write a song :) wish me luck!

peace