foiled again

so turns out cat (the third of my unholy trinity of the undying high school crushes) is "kind of seeing somebody" *sigh* i guess i'll have to search elsewhere. as i said before, my brother said i should find a summer fling, hah. like i could ever live with that. i dunno, maybe i could. all i know is that i'm going to the fuckin' beach tomorrow :) maybe i'll find some hot bodies to at least satisfy my psychological sexual needs (yay! fantasies!).

at the moment, resident evil is on one of my many HBO channels at my disposal. in case you don't know, milla jovovich is like, among the top five hottest women on earth to me (i won't take the time to formulate a list though). i once wondered if i should start making 'top five' and 'top ten' lists on my blob, but i realized that i never really have to 'find' things to write about. i just kind of....do. i dunno, maybe it'lll be fun...good way to get audience participation, perhaps? but yeah, beautiful. and she wears a red dress (mmm...red) that just kind of gets shorter and shorter throughout the movie. always a good thing.

and four fifths of the rescue team just got killed by a computer, spectacular :) this is what artificial intelligence gets us i suppose.

lots going through my head lately....i'm still in that numb shock of being home in an empty house with absolutely no engagements planned as of yet. i emailed some old teachers, left some messages on cell phones, trying to figure out who of my friends are actually home...cutomizing my dad's computer to my own needs :) he's got xp so i have my own 'user account' but i keep running into problems when i have to instal something. fuckin' microsoft. but yeah, lots of clutter...having trouble coming to any real conclusions or decisions about anything right now. i keep having to tell the story about how i don't know wha ti'm doing with my life and it just makes it harder and harder every time i hear it come outa' my mouth. i suppose i have a year to figure it out but still, it weighs more and more. i'm sure you (the general you) know the feeling.

my latest idea is to start emailing magazines about advice on how to get into certain careers. for example, i was reading 'mobile entertainment' on my plane rides from cali which is a magazine dedicated partially to souping up cars for performance, but almost equally they talk about car audio/video installations. there's some crazy shit out there nowadays, lots of cool electronics i'd love to get my hands on and, even more, build :) i figure waves of emails should at least give me an idea about how the industry works. i kind of imagine a bunch of self-taught types of people who started these small companies out of their garages and got good at making amps and just built up from there. that's quite a barrier of entry if you ask me (yay ecomomics). that would be a great fuckin' job though :) how to make an amp that can blow the fuckin' windows out of your car. it's amazing how far past 'practical' techies will go sometimes for the sake of 'the show'. i'll admit, if i had the money i would too :) but i don't, so i concentrate on the practicality of my toys. mm...toys. i've got like 70 sony points on my sony card that i can use at any time....or wait for more to pile up. that's $70, basically...for sony shit. i love sony shit (that's why i got the card). shit i'd be a happy man if i could work with sony for the rest of my life. they even have a car audio line called Xplod...it's colors are red black and silver....i think it's calling me :)

we'll see.

on a lighter note...my blob came up second on a search for "pressing & sucking boobs" which came ENTIRELY out of consequence. funny how those three words ended up in one post....great shit (i wasn't even talking about porn that time).

milla jovovich just rocked the collective ass of about eight zombied out, bloody as hell doberman's. so hot.

mm...red.