lost

so i spent a long time with candace tonight after the party...everyone had left. barry came by a few times completely tripped out on coke or some godawful thing...he was really wired.

either way, me and candace...uh...yeah...didn't really get anywhere...again. i did, however promise that i'd try this summer to 'be a friend'. matt's going to maryland and once again in her life, she doesn' tknow when the next time she'll see her boyfriend is.

i, on the other hand, basically told her what i never did before: that i love her. even now, after all this, and even though i don't think i could ever be with her again. i think i still love her.

shit.