weekly (daily...hourly....) bitch bitch

so finally failed in my avoidance of candace tonight. jordan (my friend, her cousin) had a little party at his place in 'ewa and she showed up. for a while it was just me there and she called saying she was on her way....good thing women take forever 'cause others showed up before her. either way, i didn't say much to her, talked to her friend kristi more...'bout surfing. for once candace didn't try and corner me, and i left before most people 'cause i have the farthest to drive, i was getting buged by 'the drunk guy' being sober, and yeah, didn't wanna give candace the chance ;)

she smelled damn good though...i have a kind of 'olfactory memory' of sorts (as oposed to photographic almost)...i remember lots of things based on smells, it's kind of creepy. maybe it's something lots of peopl edo and i'm just full of shit, but it seems a bit more than that to me at least. either way, after being so close to someone for as long as we were...her smell brings back...er...memories. very good memories, but unfortunately they're good memories that will never be anything more than memories anymore.

and this is why i want her out of my life...bit harsh, but in all my contemplations i come back to that most of the time.

and then i can go onto a 'six degrees of seperation' of sorts...where i can relate almost anything i see/hear/feel/smell/taste to something about her that i'd rather not remember.

this can't be healthy.


on another note, i got access to another friends' board (friends' brother to be exact) which is much better than the current board i'm using....maybe now i'll be able to keep up with the hot surfer girls at diamond head?

killian's irish red