now

i want it to be the weekend already....today was insane. i did 2.4 psets today...well...'tuesday's' midnight to midnight. finished two of them rather well and making headway on that last one...who's due date is pretty arbitrary (i love this prof). broke off in the middle of it to go golfing though :) best decision i've made this week yet. tao, beck, verb, and duke came out. duke left after about the tenth hole or something. i ended up breaking my old record of 63 (in clown shoes) with a 61 tonight! so nice. it was very relaxing, i think i really needed it. whenever i drink coffee and then get stressed (up until dinner all i'd put in my mouth was coffee all day) i tend to clench my jaw unconsciously. at the end of the day my muscles will be all tired...very weird feeling. if i didn't feel like enough of a piece of shit already....even EATING is tiring. wonderful.

but yeah, all i usually need is some excercise or something else to just get my mind off shit. last week sometime i felt like i did today and ended up going blading (w/ krischelle, some of you know her) and that really helped loosen me up. it's probably hereditary 'cause my brother and sister both have similar ailments. my sister literally grinds her teeth, and both of them do it in their sleep. my brother kind of clicks them together periodically when he sleeps (we used to share a room when we were little and i noticed he still does it). you'd think my teeth would be more dull....but instead i have fangs worthy of the vampire sleep schedule i usually keep.

only i don't melt in the sun....or at least i've been told i shouldn't.

does that mean i'm blade? oooh, that would be BAD-ASS. that hyphen is for a pause. Bad-Ass.



hmm...before i started writing i'd been sitting here for a while trying to think of something to write. once i got started....somehow i turned into blade. funny. i amaze myself sometimes...no wonder i love blobbing.

oh and i bought a bottle of red wine today for those nights i don't want a beer. i've decided i have to keep more alcohol around. i've got a few beers left...but i don't always feel like a beer. if i'm only having one or two beers....i almost may as well have NONE. unless it's with food, then it's very satisfying. but if i'm just having one drink, like i'm going to do in a sec. a stiff cocktail or glass of wine is nice 'cause it's nice and warm and cuddly. be a nice way to go to sleep.

shiraz (from a south eastern australain winery called 'lindemans')