random bird droppings on the hood

i forgot to mention that i bowled my new highest a few weeks ago at jessica koko's birthday travelling party :) 189 up from a 181 from about 9 years ago. psyched :)

had the chance to break 200 but fucked up the 9th frame.

i've been avoiding myself in the past few days. i have a way of keeping myself busy with everything else when i get depressed. i can't really stand sitting still because i start thinking, and that's never good. i need some time to cool down. spent countless hours on raimi lately...should be running a lot better tomorrow...waiting for a gasket to dry. i play pickup twice a week. back feels good. i rollerblade around campus all the time. i'm "that guy". i'm the only guy on rollerblades in the entire school it seems...i'm gonna be a campus character again soon. especially when i clobber some pedestrian 'cause i'm weaving. oops in advance.

but yeah...like my brother told me (and i agreed), they're all just distractions. but that's what i want them for right now. a lot about my general philosophy of life has changed in the past few weeks...and that's gonna take time to settle in. and i need to do that alone. so weird to think that i haven't been single in an entire year...usually i'm always single. i should be used to it.

but i need distractions.

i have my first midterm tomorrow. i'm not gonna bother studying. it's easy to know a class when you actually DO the homework i'm realizing. haha. it's funny how little homework i did at columbia. to think how happy i was in those classes where homework didn't count for ANYTHING. of course i ended up doing them all anyway...the night before the midterm. i decided at the beginning of this year that i'm just gonna suck it up and do it.

of course i've already missed one and a half in the first 4 weeks of school. hey i just realized...today (thursday) marks my first complete month of grad school.

still a little surreal, but it's setting in. and i like it.


i like you.

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