burn the diary, keep the match

so for the first time in a LONG time, i did next to nothing for an entire weekend :)/:(

i haven't quite decided how i feel about that.

on the one hand, it did feel good to be alone with my thoughts...on the other hand my own thoughts got kind of boring and/or tedious. watched a lotta tv, borrowed "domino" and watched that which was pretty cool, and went to a pretty chill birthday bbq. cleaned a little, organized a little, folded some clothes that were getting a little too close to my dirty pile...shit like that. considered about a dozen times pickin' up a guitar and makin' some noise...didn't happen. considered getting my board and jumpin' in the water...no waves. considered throwing beau in the water instead...his hip is bad again (he goes through phases). considered doing some homework...heh..yeah...right.

perhaps it was a good break since i had a pretty easy week last week and that led to a lot of spontaneous drinking...oops.

being alone with my thoughts has brought on the rather unsettling reawakening of tamthoughts. no thanks to a friend(s who've decided to bring her up more often for some reason. is that just a coincidence? i dunno... just hurting all over again. dreaming about her doesn't help a single bit, either. shitballs.


shifting gears, the one productive piece of work i did all weekend was go through raimi's blog and notate all the repairs/new parts. pretty much all that's left is to vacuum her and post her on craigslist. so sad :( i read through the entire blog from day 1 (June 21, 2004) and relived all the sweat, blood and time i put into that car. gonna be a sad stage in my life to close. i hope only to be reopened later in life.

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