my way

started a new blog about red wine...figure i'd like to hear myself talk about it and hope you do too!

"my way"...new song on my karaoke list :) sinatra's never had a place on it before but i'm trying to diversify. and i think it's hilarious using it as a segue to foo fighters or system of a down :) scares people. fun.

either way, was thinking tonight about how i always enjoy doing things on my own. i'm a mild mechanic. i fix my own surfboards. can do plumbing and electrician's work. want to build things instead of buy them...half the time it has nothing to do with money. can only surmise (i don't know for sure yet) that it has most to do with pride, haha. because i can, i should? i dunno. that and my time isn't at all valuable these days (at least monetarily). i can. so i do.

spent the last 3 days fixing 4 surfboards. doesn't sound as bad as it is..i'm home so little it takes forever and i'm pretty sure my catalyst has been sitting so long it's decomposed a little because all the mix ratios i thought i knew are way fuckin' off. kept letting them sit overnight to cure (the first batch didn't cure at all, had to wipe it.....what a mess!). but yeah..."3 days" means like...20mins-2hrs a day. depending on the job (sanding is a bitch...and for yet another odd reason i refuse to use power tools...). the time between is resin curing. either way, bought all new resin 'cause my last batches spoiled already...few new tools. for the same amount i could probbably have gotten them all fixed. but with these i can fix 100 dings.

and at the end of one of those projects, i feel good about my time. i feel good about using my skill and my tools and my materials to do what needed to be done. maybe one day i'll be making a crapton of money and not have time for this shit. but then again maybe at that point i'll have no time for surfing.

or fixing my car.

or fixing my house (rental...i could just call a plumber).

does my life need fixing too? can i buy that at city mill?

maybe i'll always need time to do these menial jobs. because i feel good after them. sit back and suck on my beer and smile, admiring my work. proud that i can do so many things by myself. often wonder if i could've had a happy life being a car mechanic. maybe...maybe not. maybe when i'm 40 : ) although i do think when i wanna drop out of the real world i'll buy a pub instead.

feel better doing crazy things like make solar cells though : ) "i make solar cells". i'm still so proud of that. no i don't install them. no i don't sell them. no i don't test them. if you'd told me 4 years ago that i'd be making solar cells now, i wouldnt've believed you. didn't even know how they worked :) craziness.

*did it my way*