holy fuckin' crap

http://honolulu.craigslist.org/car/44047403.html

this is what i get for cruisn' cragslist....for those of you debating whether or not to click the link it's a '69 pontiac trans am for sale for $15k. can you say hot?


please pee myself.

818-879-2545

has anybody else gotten weird calls from someone at 818-879-2545? i get a message every couple of days...usually it's an answering machine...which is weird...i don't mean like a recorded message, i mean an ANSWERING MACHINE that says "please laeve your message at the beep" or something...how does that get on my voicemail? twice some guy talks at the end of it going, "hello? hello?"

today the message was some girl going "yooohooo, yooohooo"...sounds philipino or mexican...

i googled the number and there were already complains on 'complaints.com'. they say that they were asking this person about her frined...so they think they somehow hacked their friends' phonebook somehow because they had this person's home AND cell number....

very weird. anything?

only tuesday

so brian and meghann left this afternoon. we had lunch together one last time (they left before i got off work). very nice to see them :) they had a good time. i told 'em more than a week and you start lookin' for an apartment and a job already...haha.

took a break from surfing to play some ultimate. goddamn. i REALLY feel the difference when i don't sleep nowadays. it's pathetic. i got so fuckin' tired...i was talkin' to...i think cat and moani last night and didn't notice that it was passing 11pm. was late to work, but nobody even notices. hell i only ahve two more days there 'till i go back to SSFM...and who knows what i'll be doing there. should keep me awake at least :) i've been learning how to do contours on the maps we've been drawing. all the shots that are taken in the field are put in the computer with a location and an elevation. initially, the computer takes all the elevations and guesses (using interpolation i think) what the contours look like. after that you have to go through the entire thing and find where the computer messed up and edit the lines using...various methods...i was figuring it out as i went...and so now that i got to the end of the road that means ihave to go back and fix all the shit i fucked up when i was first learning....tedious, but somehow engrossing. days have been going fast.

possibly night surfing tomorrow. i have to fix my board. i ddi quite possibly the STUPIDEST thing you can do with a surfboard. i forgot to strap it down to my roof when i left diamond head on...i think it was saturday night. i was in the middle of getting ready to go when i had to make a phone call and forgot about it...*shakes head*. so i start driving and hear a loud thump as it hits my trunk and tumbles to the side of the road. thank god the SIDE because a car was right behind me...that woulda' scared the shit outa' me if i were that guy....

but yeah, damage was much less than it could've been...but the resin i use cures with UV light, so i have to do it in the daytime....which poses a problem. i have another shitty board that's better for big waves anyway...i think i already mentioned that.

brought out my acoustic guitar for the first time since i've been home. i forgot how nice it sounds :) i got one with a cedar top. much softer and more fragile...but it has a really crispy sound (i use heavy strings)....bright sound. and that smell *sigh*. i think that guitar was probably the first really big purchase of my life (i got it junior year in high school). before that was only small stuff. good investment! damn...6 years...i should name her.


goodbye blue.

fly high

so a south swell hit late yesterday and it's carrying through tomorrow. i went out after work...and dude, it was pretty. forecasted to be 6ft. plus (news said 10ft.) but it was barely that...only on the freak sets that were like, a half hour apart. prolly the biggest surf i've ever paddled out into, and i think definitely the biggest waves i've ever ridden. and also, one of the most amazing experiences i've ever had...

one thing i like about diamond head is that i'm a goofy footer...which may seem weird since diamond's predominant break is a right (a goofy's frontside is riding left)...so the lefts are open a lot of the time. 'open' being a relative term since there's a reason not a whole lotta people catch the lefts. when you catch the left, it closes out on you, meaning the wave breaks from two points and you're riding right into the middle of it...being chased by one from behind and playing chicken with the one coming straight at you. you have two choices, try and get over and behind the wave before the last middle section breaks and eats you, or turn straight and let the wave break with you safely in front of it and then let it calm down a little to jump off and try and not get dragged too much towards shore ('cause you ahve to get back out).

so...i'm on this MONSTER of a fuckin' wave, definitely over head high...and this bitch is closing out on me. the sun is setting and i can see the light through the churning water of the breaking lip, and i decide to charge the lip to see if i can make it over. so i bottom turn and turn right back into the wave aiming for that LAST few feet of wave that hasn't broken, and i make it....andi LAUNCH off this thing with more force than i've ever felt outside of rollercoasters and raimi. i don't even know how high i flew, but i just felt like i hung there forever...and of course when the wave breaks, the water behind it drops down...so then i'm even HIGHER out of the water...and i have no idea where it is as i'm falling. i have no idea where my board is...and that would be a bitch to fall on...and i'm just falling, and falling....and my momentum carried my feet up so i'm starting to rotate backwards, looking up at the sky. i flail my arms trying to get some sort of control...don't...and fall like a rock backflopping in the water who knows how far below me. i come up laughing my head off and this dude next to me was like "holy shit that was fuckin' awesome!" i was psyched. that was an amazing feeling...the power of these waves always amazes me...and scares me shitless. but that's what i love about it :)

great rides today. i'm back out tomorrow i think...i might play ultimate and then go night surfing under the full moon. i'll have to fix my board, though. i did quite possibly the STUPIDEST thing you can do with a surfboard....i forgot to strap it to my roof racks when i drove off on sunday night. *shakes head* i'm driving and i hear this thud as it slides off my trunk and i know immediately what it is. luckily it fell onto the side of the road and NOT in front of the taxi behind me. busted the tail pretty good, but i can fix it. *shakes head*. i was using my old POS board, which i might'a done anyway 'cause it's bigger...and helps a lot with bigger waves (6'4" vs. 6'1"). debating whether to fix my board after work before i go out and surf the full moon or bring the POS out again and use the daylight....

okay now that you've read all that shit you're probably not interested in, didn't get, or just hate me for....um...i have nothing more :)

alohas

4-letter words

so this link has been sitting on my desktop since that party last year to which, for some reason, i brought a red sharpie. and wrote four letter words on everyone's third digits...i don't know why.

me - fuck asss
max - team slut
baldwin - cock love/love cock
mary - loud fuck
glass - poon arse
tao - cock fuck
cat - poon haus
sasha - anal dick
corey - shit cunt
burger - fuck this
penny - jump redd
austin - smrt tits (w/ bullsye on nipple)
liu - jail bait
eric - eyes lick
eunji - dumb slut
muppet - fatt asss
grace - slut d (she stopped me before i could write 'drnk')
garrett - cock cunt
salty - salt dawg
brian white - suck clit
brian white's girlfriend - suck dick
steiner - anal haus
karen - slut haus
gomer - bigg boob
DON - kiss asss

i thought i'd post here before i delete it...since this'll always be here. until i get really old and, god forbid, boring.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA. yeah.

enjoy.

conquered the hill 

this is a pic ben took of me jumping from that really high rock i was talkin' about last time (which austin jumped off when he visited as well). the framing of this pic actually turned out really cool....i look like i fell from the sky.... 

ben and drew were pussies and couldn't do it. they went down the bank, across and back up : ) 

along the path to the moss slides, you have to walk on this pipe about...maybe 20-25 yards. those rocks below at the highest point are about 15 feet below....kinda scary, but kinda fun.  

hahahaha. ben just got POOPED on! (that's what that shit he's pointing to is. it was classic.) 

this is my friend drew who i play ultimate with. those are the moss slides :) the one on the left is bigger, but kinda hurts at the bottom 'cause there's that sharp turn. the one on the right is narrower, and you ahve to watch your head (branches) but faster and a softer landing...either way, i did scrape my ass, haha. 

one wish

i wish i could reproduce asexually.

rawk

i wanna start a band again. i finally started reguarly playing guitar...goddamn i suck. i always needed it LOUD in order to get into it and get in sync...unfortunately that's kind of hard when i usually get home at 8...done eating by 9....and yeah...can't be very loud. when i was at columbia i used the mixer portion of a 4-track tape recorder that christian gave me. the tape part was dead but the mixer electronics still worked reasonably well so i could route my computer or stereo into one channel, my guitar into another, and mix 'em out the headphones usually panning each to one ear, or mostly to one ear. i'm gonna be a fuckin' deaf paraplegic by the time i'm 50, i swear.

either way...yeah...need a mixer of sorts. i was thinking of getting one of those pandora boxes that emulate different amps. as far as i'm concerned, marshall is the only amp. i'm picky as hell when it comes to soundz, and marshall's are just BUTTA'. mesa boogie's are also pretty cool...but they're ridiculously expensive...i haven't had enough experience with them to compare them to marshall, though. one'a these days...when i actually have a place to really PLAY it....i'll go grab a marshall. nothin' ridiculous, just bigger than a practice amp, and not a head/cab setup....sound SO nice. i could get into the electronics...but right now i have to brush up on it. i'm pretty sure marshall uses distortion at the preamp AND postamp stage...i have to look at up again. unless someone out there is inclined to look it up FOR me so i can be a lazy ass....

but yeah, i wanna play. in a band. and scream a lot. and be really fuckin' loud. i swear, christian, when we were practicing every wednesday? that made my fuckin' week. it's like a two hour weekeend in the middle of the week. i'd look forward to it once the weekend ended. and then it was there! glad at least you got to keep up the rawk. i dug up your CD after listining to your new song (linked in the last spam mail you sent...). *sigh* i miss you guys. hello nurse kept getting better EVERY show i saw you guys! and hell i thought you guys sounded cool to begin with.

bounce bounce bounce bounce

hit of the millenium

"burn it off" is the number one hit for a yahoo search on "sexy hawaiian takes it off"

unbelievable.

of note

some things i keep meaning to mention:

my fall league team ROCKS. to refresh, me and my friend ariel cocaptained a team. we thought we were pretty screwed at the draft when they ranked us second and third round draft picks (which meant we skip those rounds)...but damn. we milked what we had for all it was worth. great choices...i'm psyched about all of 'em.

cops finally got me :) nothing bad, safety check, registration, and no front licence plate. front licence plate on a camaro!!! grrrr. oh well. that's what attracted him. he passed me going the opposite direction on some side roads, prolly saw my licence plate, saw this young kid driving a car like that, and thought he'd make sure it's legit. damnit. 55 bucks times two (he let the registration slide because it is registered, i just haven't put the little sticker on). i'm debating whether or not to contest it because contesting entails fixing...haha. i can't get a safety check at the moment 'cause my speedometer is broken and i'm pretty goddamn sure i can't pass an emissions test with one of my headers cracked completely around. my cold weld fix lasted all of a couple of weeks....*sigh*. i guess i should buy a new pair....

brian white's in town :) i'll see him a bit during the week after work and such, and we'll prolly go hiking or something this weekend.

um....i change jobs next friday...that should be interesting.

i think i'm dumping the el camino idea and concentrate on a bike once i get my credit cards in decent condition.

um....oh, and one thing i was thinking today. i think all my weird woes might be coming from work getting boring....today i was doing the extremely redundant job of sizing and aligning all the various electrical, telephone, cable, water, and gas boxes that go into public utilities for a map of an ENORMOUS section of town. i found that i'd gotten so good at it (i've been doing it for two days...and probably at least one more) that i didn't really have to think about it anymore....so i found myself brooding over all kinds of shit. work. money. women. family. parents. jacuzzies. injuries. cars. women. women. women.

of course i have to trip myself out on coffee, tea and coke to stay up all day at work...so i'm wired while i'm bored and brooding over all this shit...so i get eight hours of high intensity brooding...and this has been going on for a while. so the job change should actually be awesome.

if it doesn't help...then i guess i'll go get laid or something.


or...just...drink more.

definitely need more sleep.

long. not worth reading.

for some odd reason i've been thinking of LOSS a lot lately. i'm a complete sap watching drama in movies (although i'll rarely show it)...started happening in the past couple months i guess. maybe around the time i came home. i dunno...i think part of it has to do with independance. i mean, yeah, i live at home with my mom...but financially i'm completely independant. i pay as much "rent" as i would elsewhere except i drive about five times further than i would otherwise (good thing my car gets 12 miles/gallon), but i do have a big house to spread out in, a backyard to neglect, and a garage to work on raimi.

my mom's been getting a lot better lately. happier, more willing to do fun things with her time, mkain' new friends...crying less. she thanks me and tells me how happy she is that i'm home every once in a while. i feel like what i wanted to accomplish by coming home is actually working...so that's good. but at the same time, she is staying out of my life, like i asked her to. i need that if i'm going to be here. i don't think i've actually been home on a friday night for the past month or so...but she doesn't give me any grief for it. just glad i'm havin' fun (and not driving drunk :)

but on top of that...for some reason...branching off and creating this life for myself makes me SERIOUSLY worry about the rest of my family and my friends. i never used to before but i'm always applying situtations in movies to my own life. what would i do if a college friend of mine died somewhere across the country? what if my brother disappeared...and i'm 3000 miles away? then there's all my friends getting married and shit and i really don't feel like i could deal with that.

on one side...it's simply sharing my life with someone else. i live at home and i see my mom a couple hours a day at night 'cause i leave before she wakes up and almost always stay out to surf or play ultimate after work...if i even come home at all. what the hell kind of relationship could i have right now? unless she surfs, plays ultimate...and her name is tammy *shrugs*. fuck. i hate being attracted to women sometimes. so much easier to just live my own life.

on 'another' side is the whole loss thing. something is really spooking me for some reason about getting close to people and losing them. even just to say goodbye. i was really worried about comin' home because i wasn't sure if i could still make a life here after being away from it so long. make new friends, find things to do...or if i'd end up just surfing alone for the time i'm here and deciding to leave after this program finishes in two years.

wondered how i'd get along with all my old friends from high school as well...since i've really changed a lot since high school. it's interesting to see how people think of me and the things i do nowadays...especially when you look at the differences between the people who "knew" me, the people who just met me, and the people who remember me from high school but haven't seen me since (random ones). they're all different...i don't know what to think about that. and i don't know if i should do anything about it either. i was talking about it with moani once and she said quite frankly that everyone has to have a few faces adn that it's natural. when she said that, i wholeheartedly disagreed with it. i mean, i can see how people can do that, and it'll be fine...but i personally feel so awkward in that position. i'm at a point again where i have seperate groups of friends whom i can't imagine having fun with eachother...

and i wonder...am i losing friends? have i already lost them? a lot of these new friends are grad students at UH (ultiamte folk)...i'm not completely sure where even they'll be in a year or two. almost afraid to ask. hell in two years i don't know where I'LL be.

is this what wanting to settle feels like? i've only just arrived at that question after typing all that aimless gibberish. if you've made it this far, i apologize alredy. i promise my next post will have a cute picture in it to compensate. i've seen a lot of the world. i know what makes me happy. i have an almost ENDLESS list of "hobbies" that i constantly have to prioritize since i can't indulge in them all. should i stop running around?

even surfing...i have things going so madly through my head i can't really relax. it's weird. something's really bothering me....


maybe i do just need to get laid.

metallica and kenny loggins

i must be the only one on earth with the two of them on my playlist to put me to sleep....

hey i got paid today.

hey i played ultimate today after TWO AND A HALF WEEKS resting my ankle....if by resting you mean surfing.

hey i didn't hurt myself playing ultimate

hey i haven't fucked it up with tammy yet. guess you still have to keep reading, austin...and apparently EVERYONE ELSE who reads my blog. seriously, i got 41 hits today...who the fuck are you people? i don't even HAVE 41 friends...i might have 41....enemies....shit.

hey league starts tomorrow.



sweetness

and finally, here's me having fun with the fact that my camera is waterproof :) i'm in the process of jumping off the same rock that you see me and jordan jumping off in the first pic. ...i think jordan's actually taking a pic of me from the edge of the pool as well...huh. yay for durable cameras :) 

here's a second waterfall that you get to by climbing up the first one (also really easy). it's made up of four or five ENORMOUS boulders that seem to have been carried and lodged where you see them now by some enormous flood or something. i used to climb up that...but that was always in the dryer summer when there wasn't a stream of water in my face (i wear contacts....). we jumped off this one as well...you have to be careful not to skin yourself on the sides, though. and this one's only like...nine or ten feet deep? definitely touch (not hit) bottom...unless you do an enormous bellyflop like jordan kinda did..... 

here's me and my friend jordan jumping off the little rocks by the little waterfall at maunawili. maybe like an hour and a half hike in...easy one. it's been raining a lot so there was actually a lotta water, cool stuff. forgive my camera for having no zoom : ) up that cliffside on the right is a ledge...maybe...three times higher than where we are now that i climbed up and jumped off as well. the water's prolly about twelve-fifteen feet deep...can't tell (too murky to see) but as long as you don't go STRAIGHT down when you jump you won't break anything. might bump some soft dirt/mud at the bottom though.... 

heh

that actually made me laugh, austin. not to say you're usually not funny, it's just that something that hurts that deeply shouldn't be funny to me...but it is! that's the fun of it. maybe writing about what a loser i am helps me come to terms with it...or maybe i just don't really give a shit? we'll see when i fuck it up with tammy...

i should see her tomorrow. perhaps then you can stop reading my blog. heh.

in OTHER news...fuck. south swell hit yesterday (5ft.) and i couldn't go because of the draft. held today so ALL FUCKIN' DAY i was psyched to go. finally i get out and i'm BLOCKED IN. so painful. i have my board. i have a bitchin' car. and i have a handspan of space on either bumper flanked by a wall and an SUV. yeah my parking arrangement is twisted...but it's free which is hard to come by. so i got stuck. i read more of the dark tower. i took a nap. FINALLY the field guys came back fuckin' TWO HOURS LATER...and then we had to wait anotyher half hour to get some keys....fuck. i finally got out a half hour before the sun set. said fuck it and went to waikiki anyway, got in the water just as the sun was setting and it was beautiful. fuckin' windless shoulder high sets and i had the inside break all to myself 'cause the only other peeps out there were longboarders. so sexy. although really fuckin' creepy. no moon and overcast...so when a wave would come the only indication would be the disappearance of the horizon....and then there's that split second before it breaks that the wall is steep enough to reflect the light from the city to tell you where the goddamn wave is. i know the break pretty well though and lined up perfectly...made for some steep drops but i could still make 'em. good shit...even though it was short lived (i got tired catching wave after wave...usually you ahve to wait around 'cause there's more people).

...and that's the most pissed off i've been in MONTHS...haha. because i couldn't go surfing. what a life.


brian white comes in a week!


pooh corner by one.

lots

on my mind lately. doubt i'll get to blob it all...just how it goes. not like i really run out of things to blob :)

of note, however, is last night. me and my friend ariel (ah-ree-el, puerto rican guy) are co-captaining a fall league team. 12 week league...should be lotsa fun. we thought we were doomed from the beginning when they seeded us 2nd and 3rd round drafts (captains had to skip the round they were 'expected' to be picked in) so we got a first round pick (which we got a great one) and had to wait for the FOURTH round...brutal. either way...our team turned out WAY better than i expected after that bomb they dropped on us. i'm psyched, it should be a lotta fun. i am still nursing injuries, but i got a knee pad for myu left knee, i have that ankle brace for my right ankle...and the ice is in the freezer, haha. we start this friday.

of note, apparently i was a huge surprise last season. i was that 'dark horse' that my captain justine picked that everyone's like...who? justine was one'a the few girls that knew me. i seem to have impressed them, though 'cause at least some wanted us to give up our first round draft...*whew*. lotsa fun, though. i look forward to it. we have a fun looking team, and LOTS of potential.


surf's up. might not be surfing as much as i have been after league starts this friday...gotta get it in while i can.


peace

ahhh

went hikin' yesterday. got some cool pics that i'll post eventually. i wonder if blogger's ever gonna put any cap on how many pictures you can post...haha. free webspace!

and i partied last night and KEPT MY CELL PHONE!!! woohoo!!! i was driving, so i didn't drink too much. my friends were diggin' a cruise in the camaro. got home after three....woke up at 4pm :) that felt good. i'm debating ditching tree trimming with my mom to surf since she's not home at the moment....heh heh.

i love my weekends.

good

good news from old friends
good fun with new friends
good fun with old friends
good news from really old friends

good surf, too!

these past few days have been so good to me.

woohoo

found my phone. sittin' in the back seat of josiah's car, good deal. had two messages, one of my friend calling my phone in front of me front his house telling me (through my phone) that i'm a fuckin' retard. and another one from tammy, this girl who was chillin' with us who i drunk dialed and was trying to get to come to the next bar we went to...my phone hung up on her randomly, like it usually does, and she was calling back to make sure i didn't think she hung up on me.

...i don't remember calling her. hope i didn't say anything dumb (although the chances are likely, heh).

surf's up a small bit this week. good thing i'm not playing ultimate. i'm pretty sure i'm gonna be cocaptaining a team with ariel. we're gonna try and get the youngest, fastest team out there and try to just run the other teams into the ground. hopefully what we lack in experience we can make up for with brute speed and endurance. he and i are already two of the faster ones on the field and we play together on teams a lot so i have a good feeling about it :) should be fun in the least. maybe we can have drinking practices...

went to bad last night with a smile on my face because i didn't have to set my alarm :) of course, this was past 4am...had a great sunday. was at the park beach all day celebrating a dual birthday (ultimate crew) met some random people at a bar, went to a lebowski/white russian's party (what is it with ultimate players and lebowski?), then met up with my OTHER group of friends at reign, this shitty nightclub. good to see them, though. looong day/night...with 10 hours of sleep afterwards :) methinks i'll need to drink myself to sleep tonight. bought a bottle of jameson last week for that reaosn.


one fell swoop

sweet

i lost my cell phone again. i rule!!! haha. gotta strap that thing to me when i go drinking methinks....i checked one'a the places we were at and they didn't have it...*sigh*. i'm hoping it's in my friend's car. oh well.

on the other hand, i'm constantly reminded of how great my weekends are. i really am proud of the way i spend my time when i get time to burn. surf, drink, family, friends....it's only sunday of a three day weekend and i've had a great time. AND i've been sleeping!!!! yay.

oh, and i'm seriously considering getting an el camino....muahahaha


yoink.

anime

yo, all you anime geeks out there. this movie 'sky commander' and the something something something with something on top....gwenyth paltrow, judel law, and anglina jolie....why do the robots look like the ones in castle in the sky??? i REALLY like the look of that movie. that soft, old style movie look with the added anime...i'd see it just for that. reminds me of the rocketeer...only prettier.

i need more anime...don't have austin and liu and sonic to bum off anymore...*sigh*. i don't buy movies anymore. i never watch tv *shrugs*. i should just go and buy a good series...


worky worky, i'm gonna be late.....

confirmation

that i really am fucked up. i got four hours of sleep last night...went to a rock show late and crashed at my friend's place in town...which is like ten minutes from work.

and i still got 4 hours of sleep *shakes head*. work was painful, but less so than i thought it would be. took a half hour...er...non-nap. i had so much caffeine in my system i couldn't sleep despite how tired i was so i just kind of slumped in my chair with my eyes clothes instead of eating lunch...but yeah, made it through the day...

come home, too tired to do anything useful so i watch tv...which is rare for me these days. eventually decide i'll ready (song of susannah) 'till i'm sleepy around...maybe 7:30. read 'till nine...and i'm more awake than before. find a cool episode of x-files (they went off the deep end again, SWEET!) and even more awake. there's the second portion of a multiple part episode on now...and i'm still not tired. trying to drink myself to sleep at the moment.

what the fuck is wrong with me?

*shakes head*. maybe it's the lack of excercise. i think i'm well enough to surf tomorrow. small waves, i think i can handle.



so wrong.