Burn it Off

my self-inflicted panopticon failed.

8.31.2004

correction

ana got pissed off at me 'cause i said shirley manson is dutch when she is in fact scottish. at least according to her :) not sure where i got dutch from...

forgive me!

i'm trying to convince my mom to get rid of the camry and help me get an el camino :)

badass. 350 V8 w/ manual 4 spd., just like raimi. that'd be so hot. and then i wouldn't have to worry so much about hauling stuff....


late night rock show tonight, alohas.

candy and music

so as far as i know i'm the only person here who brings a bag to work. what do i have in that bag? candy and music. i rarely listen to my cd's at home anymore since i have such a massive collection on my computer...so i listen to all my cd's in the car and at work. i started bringin' my bigass headphones to work since i usually get this big projects that take me days to do and nobody ever really 'needs' to talk to me so it doesn't matter much. either way, yeah, i've been listening to all my old cd's one by one, almost running out. today under my passenger car seat i found smashing pumpkin's "siamese dream", one of the GREATEST fuckin' albums ever produced.

one song in particular, number 8 "Greek USA" i think is one of the most amazing arangements ever made. as usual, i have no idea what he's saying 'cause you can barely understand him an di barely ever listen to lyrics anyway...but musically the song's amazing, and i had to look it up 'cause i was wondering what the title was and found out that the album was produced by Butch Vig! he's one'a the 'artists' in Garbage. i say artist 'cause they're a weird band. they're all producers except shirley manson (the hot dutch singer). i'd imagine they all play all instruments, but butch vig is the dude with the long hair on guitar and drums sometimes i think....

i thought that was pretty fuckin' cool, especially since siamese dream is the album that shot smashing pumpkins into the mainstream...at least i'm pretty sure (MTV-wise at least w/ today, rocket and disarm).

okay...just thougth i'd share. lunchtime :)

and btw...i heal fast. i think i might go surfing tomorrow...


i smell like spray paint.


8.29.2004

MIA

well fuck me...now i am officially broken.

ultimate summer league finals yesterday...we weren't looking for anything grand, just to have a lotta fun, and we did :) beat blue, who'd beat us twice before. great game, good spirit, good fun. lost our other two games...one 'cause our team showed up really late and the other 'cause they were jsut way better and we had nothin'.

aaaand on to the injuries. my ankle was sprained from two week's previous...and rolled many times throughout those two weeks between surfing and (more) ultimate...so it wasn't in very good shape. so i just laced up that brace as tight as it would go and tried not to put too much pressure on it. yeah...rolled it a few more times, and had one reckless guy with no cleats slide RIGHT into/over my ankle on one play. ouch.

that was the first game. second game...i got scared. chasing a disc into the endzone (on d) i lept to try and cut it off, but with only one leg to leap off, didn't get the height i wanted and contorted myself over in a funny position and landed with my legs going one way and my shoulders the other...twisting my back *cringe*. god that hurt. and scared me. but it went away really fast...just kinda shocked it i guess. it's kinda tender today but that's okay since i'm takin' a break 'till 'fall season' which starts on sept. 17th.

and lastly, the one that finally put my out...going up the line hard for a breakside pass my defender clips my knee with a back kick with his cleat (incidental). i play out the point but by the end it's just ACHING so i sit out for a few. this one hurt like a bitch...just TOUCHING it...barely putting any pressure, felt like a you were jabbing it with a fuckin' knife. i'm not exaggerating. i couldn't tell if it was muscle or tendon or what...but it was spreading which made me it was just a bruise. either way, that faded as well so i went back in after about two points...i started the day limpin on my right ankle...and now i was limping on my left knee putting most of my weight on my hurt ankle. SMART. played hard, couldn't make headway, and i finally killed myself when i booked it up the line for a backhand huck RIGHT up the line with my defender on my heels and a deep poacher coming from the right. i leap up, snag the disc (i think it was flying out of bounds, pretty much parallel to the line), look straight down and plant my left toe in the front corner of the goal only to get plowed to the ground by both defenders for the score....and landed straight on that left knee and limped out for good :)

good way to end the day. i was actually worried i wouldn't be able to push raimi's clutch (it's a long drive ~40 mins) but it was okay. fun day, fun day...painful mroning. can't surf, can't hike, hell i can't even finish a paint touch up on raimi i started (i can't fully bend my knee) so i think i'm just gonna...read? watch tv? something lame.



alone.

8.28.2004

raimi love

couple interesting things about my girlfriend.

when i cruise with her, i like other people checkin'er out.
anytime i drive drunk, i'm puttin' my baby at risk!
her shoes cost 500 dollars.
she has two different color shoes.
she sometimes takes a little while to warm up.
once she's warm, she never cools down.
you need both hands and both feet to work her.
her hood is aaaaalways open.
she doesn't like idling.


yeah, this is what i think about these days. i think something's seriously wrong with me...today i cleaned the INSIDE of my wheels. i already had them off 'cause i was cleaning my breaks. the break pads were loose so they were clicking. no danger, when you hit the breaks they clamp down...just a little irritating. either way, had the wheels off and there's a shitload'a grime in there so i decided to wash the insides....*shrugs*. might as well.

i love her.

my sis got me a cool hat from MTV. she keeps sending me all the free shit she gets :) how nice. i'm too lucky. stoops, if you're still out there, karma still comin' my way. at least i sent a stereo your way. that puppy still bumpin'? treated me well for six years...hope she treats you well as well.


summer league finals tomorrow. we're at the bottom. but we have the most fun. and the most injured...including me. keep rolling my ankle over and over again...maybe it's 'cause i never let it heal. ther ewas a south swell, i had to surf. then i had to go to pickup to get my phone which i left at the naked party...and if i'm there i might as well play pickup. then...i woke up and kicked my bedpost. you have to do that sort of thing once in a while. reminder that you're alive.


aaaaand none of my friends wanted to go out on a friday night. or had no money. or had no ride. or just don't like me. heh. whatever, i've got my own shit i can do.



baby love.



8.25.2004

heh

did i ever imply that i had my clothes on? i'm pretty sure (bit hazy) that i just didn't put my clothes on for the last like...four hours of the party and just went back and forth from beach to jacuzzi...then...somehow i was perfectly comfortable sitting naked (the only naked one)in a lifeless jacuzzi that had lost half it's water with the exiting crew of drunken, off-to-sleep partiers. college sure has loosened me up...


hmm...thought i wasn't gonna give details...fin.

on another note, surf has been fuckin' AWESOME. after a two week flat spell, ALL FOUR SHORES of hawaii have surf. and to top it off, found myself some surf buddies (that cute, sweet girl i mentioned earlier in particular). i don't mind surfing alone, enjoy it sometimes, even, but it is nice to be out with friends to get stoked over the last wave that pile drived you into the reef :) but yeah, sunday, monday, today...great surf. today wasn't the biggest day, but it was CLEAN. point breaks and GLASSY. so nice. too bad i keep rolling my ankle over and over again....i'm gonn ahave to stop playing ultimate after summer league finals this saturday. of course i'll keep surfing, though...'cause it hurts less.

raimi's HOT now. quick blob on her page, but in short, fuel/air mixture was too lean and she wasn't burning enough so she'd surge and stutter. now...heh...wow. now i just need a speedometer that works....fuck.


good times. although sleep has been...lacking. work's been painful because of that. i've been doing some pretty monotonous jobs...but i do take time to teach myself things in the CAD program, though. s'long as i'm learnin'.....

aight...speaking of sleep...i'm gonna go drink more.


alohas

8.22.2004

holy shit

i just got a lot better at that game "i never"....heh

went to an ultimate party on saturday night up in ka`a`awa (45 min. drive). i wasn't really invited, but 'everyone' was invited sort of. one'a my friends just forwarded me the email. i wasn't really sure what to expect since i've known these people kind of...on and off as i came and went home/college. i thought it would at least be cool to check out and head out early or something. early party....we got there around 5pm. aaaaaand i left at about 7:30 am.
i was the last person up (surprise surprise).
i had to go find my shorts (surprise surprise).
i have no clue how much i drank (surprise surprise) but it was somewhere around 12 beers, two jello shots, and god knows how much karkov vodka at the end of the night....body shots....in a hot tub...with my naked friend and two naked women....

umm....yeah. for possibly the first time in my life i'm afraid to post details : ) but you're welcome to ask. needless to say i had a great fuckin' time. slept about five hours and drove home to sleep about four more, then went surfing.

OH, and i'm out surfing and i hear someone call my name. it was at dusk and she was right in the path of the sun so she was bobbing in this fiery trail of sunlight reflecting off the water and i'm like "who is taht? i can't see you"...so she swims closer and it turns out to be this girl named tammy who i just met at ultimate (heh, she wasn't at the party) and she's really really cute and really really cool. she plays ultimate, SURFS, hikes....i seriously never see anyone i know out surfing, and the fact that it was her? very cool. we chatted a lot between sets but she eventually got caught inside and disappeared during a big, long set and i'd already been out for like three hours i think so i caught one in and found her slowly paddling back in (diamond head is a LOOONG paddle out to the breaks) so we chatted on the little hike back up to the road (the beach is down a cliff w/ a paved walkway). we've at least got tentative plans to possibly surf this week.

this is the second time i've had some retarded night involving women and then get somewhere with someone i actually like the NEXT DAY. shouldn't make that a habit methinks.

my weekends are so full of drama, i fuckin' love it.


peace

8.18.2004

sutff

when i spend money, i spend it by the hundreds *rolls eyes* got payed last friday...let it sit for THE WEEKEND...mostly 'cause i was doin' shit and didn't have too much time to spend money. buuuut come monday, i hit up T&C surf and get a set of roof racks so i don't have to keep squeezing my board into raimi's tighter spaces....hurts them both from time to time....

then today i hit up napa to get a set of tools/parts to replace my wheel bearings. check raimi's blog for more info (and pics!) 3 hr. job...MESSY job...and may have been misdiagnosed? shit.

i haven't eaten and i didn't even think about it....oh the joys of great hobbies.


and i shaved today!


hump day, over.


8.17.2004


there we go, little cooler. had to turn on the light in the garage to get just a little bit'a contrast 'cause i couldn't get anything with no light. in real life she looks alive in the dark, it really is kinda creepy. there're chrome valve covers, some bars, and that air filter and they look really creepy with a shine in the dark.... Posted by Hello

fun w/ film one


so i was trying to take a picture in the dark...'cause there's a shoplight up betwen raimi's legs right now drying some cold weld glue stuff i'm using to attempt repair on my exhaust header. turns out it's more than about a three inch crack...it goes ALL THE WAY AROUND the entire pipe...oops. i was taking off the heat shield and spark plug to get a better look and yup, all the way around. shit. sooooi got all up in there, puttied the shit out of it, jacked her up and got underneath to go the rest of the way around (barely enough room to use a chopstick to stuff the shit in) and the shop light's in there to dry it. it 'should' dry in 2-4 hours (i leave for work in seven) but it says it dries better/faster w/ some heat so i thought it couldn't hurt. she runs normally around 200 degrees farenheit....i doubt a shoplight'll do any harm.

either way it turns out you can't turn the flash on my camera :) haha. i told you it was simple. i'm not too bothered by it, though. hell maybe there is a way and i don't know it. you know...i just figured it out. be right back.... Posted by Hello

8.15.2004

whoa

pretty crazy weekend...friday night we didn't play summer league 'cause the lights didn't go on. lame. so we got drunk and played milk...in near dark. then went to see harold and kumar go to white castle. fuckin' hilarious :)

slept lots, surfed, hung out with mo, and went to a gay club! yay. friends and friends of friends, don't worry, i'm not gay. ALTHOUGH...one of my friends had to tell her boyfriend i AM gay 'cause he's all worried and shit about her hangin' out with me...'nother friend of mine IS gay apparently...did wonder, but tried to strike it from my mind 'cause really...i'd hate to wrongly accuse someone of being gay *shrugs*. and on top of that? two classmates (year younger) from high school band thought i was some gay guy that fucked one'a their x-boyfriends. amazing. they heard a name and a graduation year and i was the only one they knew...wonderful. at least thye both thought i was hot? shit i dunno. i scolded moani that she was supposed to protect me, damnit.

never again (although i've already said that once).

and then today...turns out this girl i hooked up with my senior year...she was a year below (although a year older than me, homeschool)...and i was supposed to go to her junior prom with her...yeah i kinda flipped out 'cause she totally jumped me when i was drunk. i got scared, she was hurt...oops. turns out she plays ultimate and she was at this tournament today. i was wondering if it was her but the game was pretty intense...i was about to ask her at the end when she beat me to it. had a good conversation, she seemed to be cool about it...it WAS four years ago...but yeah...still dn't feel like dealing with that.

speaking of that tournament, second game i sprain my ankle AND a toe (got a cleat caught when i tried to slide under a disc sprinting parallel to it in the endzone). taped it up. jumped back in. rolled it again doing one of my retarded inside out forehands....upgraded to a lace up brace and (more) vitamin I...played finals. lost, took second. was a sweet day :) met a really cute/cool girl from vancouver, too. oh wait, but i'm GAY.

quite a weekend *room spins*.

work resumes.

'night


8.13.2004

aloha friday

man, this week was kinda slow. i'm pretty sure i'm about done with fieldwork, so i'm in the office all the time now, "drawing the world" as one of my coworkers put it. interesting, still, but i would seriously go crazy if that's all i did for the rest of my life. but, as long as i'm learning, i'm game.

learned something interesting (blogged in more detail in her blog) today...because i have bigass wheels on my rearend....my speedometer and odometer all slow (they get their readings from the transmission). so i'm getting better mileage than i thought i was AND driving faster than i think i am.

yay!

which means that one time i was going 60 mph in SECOND gear....i was going even faster...oops. was fun, though ;)

this little cough isn't goin' away...but i don't give a shit. i'm gonna go to summer league early to meet a friend and get drunk and heckle the first game....we don't have much to lose...so we're just gonna have as much fun as we can. i like heckling. i like being drunk. i like ultimate. score. aight, gotta pay some bills *sigh*

it's aloha friday
no work 'till monday

oh, btw, i made a playlist called 'angry chicks' that i can pretty much listen to ALL DAY LONG and not get bored of...it really scares me when that happens:

TATU-30 minutes
evanescence-everybody's fool
e-bring me to life
e-going under
e-lies
e-taking over
e-haunted
e-whisper
TATU-how soon is now (cover)
cardigans-my favorite game
cranberries-zombie
garbage-androgyny
garbage-shut your mouth
veruca salt-awesome
vs-born entertainer
vs-don't make me prove it
vs-leave me lying here
vs-one last time
vs-shutterbug
vs-loneliness is worse
breeders-cannonball
snake river conspiracy-lovesong (cure cover)
TATU-30 minutes (english)


i can just feel most of you cringing :) i dunno what it is about me, but i always felt like a woman's voice belongs in music much more than a man's voice....especially when she's pissed :)

and TATU..yeah...two russian lesbians...sad, i know. but that song is just fuckin' addictive. both of 'em.

i'll see how long i can go listening exclusively to this playlist (it's on a cd...so i listen to it driving and working as well....then come home and sleep to it....).

"a girl grinnin' at me/she's doin' the shimmy"



adios.


8.09.2004


that's beau! his eyes are kinda creepy, but he's a really cute dog. smart, strong, healthy, and clumsy as hell. he's adorable. me and my mom call him a little horse 'cause when ever he comes in the house he gallops around and sounds like a fricken' horse. not so clumsy he destroys anything, and he's easy to calm down so i's all good. bye beau! Posted by Hello


i think i've got some shit up my nose....either way....this is from my new camera :) sony dsc-u60 if you're interested. only 2 Mpixels but i only want it for internet stuff anyway...i never print anyting. like i said before i have like seven rolls of film to develop...bleah....i'll do that eventually. and then take pictures of them with my digital camera :) oh, and it's WATERPROOF! sweet. Posted by Hello

8.07.2004

hobby day

had a nice night last night. relaxing, indirectly avoided covers :) and got some good beer. even got one beer bought for me by a gay guy....

doesn't mean anything, he got a round for the whole table. heh.

just a chilly night of sitting and talking, i like those. came home and woke up an hour before my alarm clock (set for eight hours). i think getting 6-6.5 hours of sleep a night is locking itself in. very odd....i used to be able to sleep forever if i actually got to sleep (my problem was never 'sleeping'...but just getting to sleep). but now...7 hours and i couldn't sleep anymore, interesting. i was trying to find someone to go hiking with me but nobody seemed interested. so instead i went surfing. i was gonna try and book it to the airport to go to FedEx to pick up my digital camera....but there was some ridiculous traffic and i never woulda' made it so i jsut went to the beach. crowded as hell...there hasn't been surf in like two weeks and there was a TINY bump at a small number of beaches today so everyone was there....oh well. still caught a few sweet rides....and avoided killing one retard who didn't know what he was doing....

came home and napped. then went to work on raimi. i fixed her timing and she ROCKS now. it's posted on that blog. learning a lot about 'er :) my plan's workin' out just fine. i'm glad it is because a 3100 dollar failed investment in a hobby would've sucked. but yeah, i'm hooked. i drive around now checkin' out everyone's exhaust and rear suspension...both on my list of improvements...when i have a bit more money, of course.

i think i might chill tonight....


peace

8.05.2004

blob

blogger's bein' a bitch. wrote a post on raimi...but can't publish it. i'll try again tomorrow.

and finally, i seem to be hurting my back again. not bad, but i can feel it comin', i guess it was too good to be true. dumb me, haven't been doin' my excercises...oh well. i'll play as cautiously as i can tomorrow (summer league) and start gettin' back into the excercises...

and i really have to start getting more sleep...this shit is retarded. i don't know why the fuck i suddenly WAKE UP once the sun goes down. wonderful. consistently getting just over six hours of sleep isn't quite enough for work AND ultimate. i drink green tea all day to stay up. i just use the same bag and keep puttin' hot water : ) i really like green tea, and it's not as harsh as coffee. too much coffee and i get jittery, tea's a good balance.

went surfing after a storm....that was stupid :) two waves, and that was enough for me. i was getting to tired to fight the current/wind/waves and i was getting closer and closer to this enormous reef head that was exposed when a wave welled up on it. that could hurt. heh heh. good experience, though. every day i do shit like that i get more balls....

my camera is in honolulu somewhere....mmm....fedex! gimme my camera! i imagine i'll have to play phone tag with them for a bit before i can get it, though. bleah. relaly, what do people do to get packages when they work all week? pickup? shit.

oooooh well. i'm sure you'll be hearing when i do get tit. get tit. nice.


i need a beer.

alohas


8.02.2004

toy

i just ordered a digital camera.

it's low quality and doesn't have a whole lotta options...but i really just want it for blogging and emailing and cheap storage of memories (that's an interesting phrase). i've developed film once in the past 5 years (10 rolls) and i think i have 7 rolls right now to develop. obviously i'm not too good at that.

the greatest thinga bout this thing is that it's waterproof "up to 5 feet"...interesting. i wonder what happens after five feet. i probably won't try it...all but about three of the places i surf are less than five feet deep anyway...over razor sharp reefs and spiny crustaceans (sp?)....haven't sliced myself open in a while...well...not on the ocean. i keep doin' it on the ultimate field.

but yeah, i like the ruggedness. for some reason hawaii's havin' a whole lotta rain. i like hiking in the rain. so now i can hike in the rain and take pictures.

and i really like making you (and you and you and you) jealous that i live in paradise.

with a full-time job.

done.

unbelievable

i don't normally post links, but this really is fuckin' hilaroius:

http://www.apple.com/trailers/paramount/team_america/

it's a trailer for this movie called "team america, world police". makers of south park. gogo watch

*yawn*

8.01.2004

efficient

once again, i'm veyr happy with how i use my free time. on a related, but contradicting note, this is my 600th post to 'burn it off' apparently...heh.

some drinky, some poker, soem ultimate, some bbq, some party some surf, some steak and lobster. not bad, huh. against all attempted efforts i didn't get up into the mountains, though. i've been trying for two weeks to get up hikin'....but so far no luck. i do know one surefire to get a buddy would be to go with candace....but i don't think i can deal with her alone in the mountains for who knows how long.....meh. not ready for that yet.

had a bbq at my house last nigt (saturday). only 6 people came, but i know (and hoped) it would be kinda small 'cause all the real partiers were at this hawaiian concert that i ddin't (or the others) want to go to...so i threw a bbq. RIBS. mmm...never cooked 'em before but they came out pretty goddamn good. slow baked 'em for an entire hour than smoked the shit out of 'em. came out tender and tasty (marinated in tony roma's bbq sauce). also made bacon wrapped scallops, one'a my favorites. turned into a very chilly night of just chillin' and talkin' and catchin' up. always nice. good company, good food, good beer.

i think the only downside was that i was reminded once again about how i have to find new "lady friends" to be attracted to. these half-decade crushes are killin' me :) *sigh* i guess that's what i get for never doin' shit about it.....god knows i had my chance(s)....

i'm tired. i'm full. you're bored :)

go blob or somethin'.....


*burp*