Burn it Off

my self-inflicted panopticon failed.

10.26.2007

power in a plastic jar

i feel powerful when i have food in the house. like i'm invincible. like i don't need shit else in the world. like when i have peanut butter in the cupboard. especially when i have bread and jelly as well...but peanut butter in the cupboard, that's fucking clutch. you can put it on a cracker. a banana. hell you can put it on a fucking hotdog bun and it's good shit.

peanut butter makes me powerful.

even when i'm sober.

10.09.2007

jess's theory of relativity

it's amazing how sometimes to be happy you need a ferrari, a supermodel, a guinness, a porterhouse, a party, peace of mind, or peace on earth....

and sometimes all you need is

ONE

SOLID

TURD.


cheers to food poisoning.....ugh. i'm happy again.

10.08.2007

AA

it's been a long time since i just stayed home and gorged myself on television. pirated television tonight (like...7 episodes of Heroes)...but tv nonetheless. that show is purely addictive.

been trying to clean up a little lately. since tam i basically went on a three week binge of drinking almost every night...and by drinking i don't mean two beers with dinner. i mean the worst kind. i eventually just felt unhealthy, and didn't feel like myself. couldn't sleep right, didn't have the energy i usually do (especially in the sports i play), so i'm coolin' it down. more surfing, more sleep, and i do intend to pick up the guitar. ironically the tv is what saved me a little...instead of going out (i did have opportunities just about every night) i looked forward to relaxing, cooking up a nice big dinner, and trying to sleep better. of course being up at 2:30am blogging isn't "sleeping well" but i needed a nap earlier.

spent the day at the state capital today at "youth day". i volunteered to man a booth all day to promote disc related sports to all the kids. last year there were about 2000 kids that came through, i haven't heard a count for today yet but it was quite a bit. but i think we got the word out to a lot of people and definitely got some kids going home to terrorize their parents with their newfound flying plastic.

but yeah...kids take a lot of energy :) so i watched some heroes, napped, ate, and watched a LOT more heroes. instead of going out drinking. i consider that progress.

success is when i learn a new song on the guitar and sleep 8 hours in one night.

on my way.

10.03.2007

don't drink and blog

and that, ladies and gentlemen, is why friends should not let friends drink and blog. yeah i was pissed, yeah i couldn't sleep because of it, but whatever, it was a few cars and no, i wouldn't really break someone's ankle to feel better about myself. i'm gonna do like i always do and disregard any notion i have of deleting that post, though :) maybe i'll stumble upon it one day and remember why i'm a pacifist. dumb fucking kids.

regardless, i'm riding my fuckin' bicycle up there this week. while i never leave anything of use in my car, they didn't give a shit. they just wanted to break shit. they got into my friend's car two weeks ago and threw his homework and schoolbooks into the street.

yeah. real cool.

i'm at school, workin' late. been slackin' off REAL good lately and i'm payin' for it now. i guess that's to be expected, heh heh. my weekends have been filling up two weeks in advance lately, funny how that happens. i have one'a those dorky university of hawaii weekly planners to help me keep everything organize and i hate to say, but i'm fuckin' lost when i accidently leave it on my desk at home or school or something...i feel....old. i remember back in the day when there was like...one thing i had to actually remember a MONTH...the rest was just..."yo, wanna go get a beer?"

of course it is one way that i deal. one the reasons i AM single is that i did too much in the course of a week that tam either wasn't interested in or couldn't join me. in the end we were both lonely. of course i had "everyone else" filling that void for me but that was one'a things i fell in love with her for...she used to be there.

so now i fill up everyday of the week i can with ultimate, surfing, drinking, eating...fuckin' anything. regular ultimate, volleyball and poker, that leaves usually 3 nights in a week to find something to do. lately it's been setting up my computer. got a cheap comp from a friend when my last HD crashed. he had win2k on it...what a piece of shit. so i've spent most of the last couple days setting up a dvd burner, backing up, formatting and installing winxp and updating it (shit there're a lotta updates)...but it's been worth it. winxp is a powerhouse...glad i took the time to do it (and hopefully won't have to do it for another couple years now).

and eventually wanna get into making dvd's (living room playable types)...should be fun :) i guess it's the next step after the mixtape CD?

in the ear:
killswitch engage
dramarama
maroon 5
marilyn manson
sum 41
foo fighters (new album!)
muse
faint
linkin park

boom.